Musterbation is a sin! (But we do it anyways.)

Actually, I'm talking about masturbation, but I felt so awkward I decided to spell it wrong! I just came across an epiphany about whacking off. In an ideal society where males and females had open communications, there weren't any taboos, etc., masturbation would be completely unnecessary. The truth is, there should be no want of getting laid. We all want it, we all need it. But how often, because of communication breakdown, shyness, etc. do we sit in the dark pleasuring ourselves?
So whoever wrote the part in the bible about the guy being put to death for spilling his seed on the ground, was trying to prove a point. His point is that sexual pleasure is meant to be shared. My interpretation is that self pleasuring is tantamount to a sort of narcissism where you don't have to look to a source outside of yourself for happiness.
Ironically, it's many people's interpretations, or misinterpretations of that same holy book, that have created a lot of the trouble and neurosis that arises around sex and pleasure. Thus, the need for people to masturbate, due to not being able to find a proper love mate.
Being open, I am currently not in a loving relationship due to my insecurities around my lack of money, lack of being able to provide for properly for a female, etc. There have been women that have definitely given me every sign that they wanted to go out with me, but I flailed because I was afraid they wouldn't be able to deal with my starving artistness. That's all probably in my own head, but I am impeding myself nonetheless. And honestly, it becomes a cycle worth breaking. It has led me down many a path where I spent too many nights alone. This is just about to be broken, hacksawed, massacred because I believe in love and lust. And that the shared experience is far superior.

A song i like from chariots of fire.

(capo 2nd)

C Am F C
And did those feet in ancient time
F C Dm Am F
walk upon England's mountains green?
C Am Em Am
And was the Holy Lamb of God
Em Am Em D G
on England's pleasant pastures seen?

G Dm Gm Dm
And did the countenance divine
F Bb F
shine forth upon our clouded hills?
Dm G G7 C
And was Jerusalem builded here
Am F C F C G C
among these dark satanic mills.

C Am F C
Bring me my bow of burning gold!
F C Dm Am F
Bring me my arrows of de-sire!
C Am Em Am
Bring me my spear! O Clouds unfold!
Em Am Em D G
Bring me my chariot of fire!

G Dm Gm Dm
I will not cease from mental fight,
F Bb F
nor shall my sword sleep in my hand,
Dm G7 C
'til we have built Jerusalem
Am F C F C G C
in England's green and pleasant land!

A song i like from chariots of fire.

(capo 2nd)

C Am F C
And did those feet in ancient time
F C Dm Am F
walk upon England's mountains green?
C Am Em Am
And was the Holy Lamb of God
Em Am Em D G
on England's pleasant pastures seen?

G Dm Gm Dm
And did the countenance divine
F Bb F
shine forth upon our clouded hills?
Dm G G7 C
And was Jerusalem builded here
Am F C F C G C
among these dark satanic mills.

C Am F C
Bring me my bow of burning gold!
F C Dm Am F
Bring me my arrows of de-sire!
C Am Em Am
Bring me my spear! O Clouds unfold!
Em Am Em D G
Bring me my chariot of fire!

G Dm Gm Dm
I will not cease from mental fight,
F Bb F
nor shall my sword sleep in my hand,
Dm G7 C
'til we have built Jerusalem
Am F C F C G C
in England's green and pleasant land!

The girls on beverly drive

The girls on Beverly Drive
are so high maintenance
But it makes me feel so alive
I've got to improve my self confidence
Pretty girls always think you make it obvious
You have to let her know
it's nothing too serious
Chorus
Sweet Sugar for my rotting teeth, AMEN!
She's like a needle going into yintang, again.
Sweet Sugar for my rotting teeth again
another bedbug crawling into my sheets again
V2
Did he come on to you and already bore you tears?
I could make love to you
for just about 100 years
Leave him baby come along with me
i'm gonna show you how to break free
He read all the games on pickup got a real slick hand
but honey, i sing for a rock and roll band!

Set your goals.

So............
I have never been one for setting long term goals. Maybe it's a lack of discipline, or a vague notion of what I want out of life. It was always supposed to come together somehow. But I have decided to try to become more organized. And by that, I don't believe in waiting until the "new year."
Part of the problem with setting a blueprint for your life is that often things change, so you get that "why even try" feeling. But I am finding out that it is still good to get your goals down on paper.

My hawaiian adventure.

I got to Honolulu 12 days ago. I'm leaving tomorrow night. It's been a great journey. I have decided to return to the mainland. But here is a short description of some stuff i did:
Stayed at the YMCA the first week
I went to Hale'Iwa on the north shore, ate at coffee gallery where my brother Danny used to work.
After checking out of the Y I was hanging out with a girl I met and we met Art Alekaxis from Everclear at a late night diner. Then we took a bus to Turtle bay and Banzai pipeline. I continued my journey alone, walking to Waimea Beach and staying the night at a hostel. The night after I spent all day walking and swimming the beaches.
The next morning I inquired about work for a hostel- I was hired, but decided after a day of training, (yesterday,) decided not to take the job. I also worked for one day at labor ready loading boxes from a truck. I met John Baker, who is rapper Machine Gun Kelly's uncle.
The last two nights I have stayed at Hokondo Waikiki Beachside Hostel. It's been nice. I booked my ticket back for late Thursday night, flying into oakland in the morning. I have decided to play the part of tourist for the next day and a half.

Darwin Knaggs

DARWIN KNAGGS
If i could tour in a band with anyone, it would be Darwin Knaggs. He’s talented and funny, a winning combination. We make great music together. I met him when I was 20 years old. He answered an add I had up at Sawyers magazine, looking for a band. I’ve met many of my other friends through him as well, like Ocean Moon and Marty Sotak.