Have I been passive agressively searching the divine?

Have I been waiting for god to wake me from my slumber? Why has my soul been tired so long? So tired that I feel like I need a sign, something of significance to show me that I'm on the right path. Even when they're right in my face, in fact, the stronger they get, it seems to be the weaker I am in acting. There is evidence of something out there that is just waiting for me to take note.