Friday, February 26, 2010

So wednesday night

i went down to Lost Souls cafe downtown. After watching Terence Leclere open up for the great stand up comedians over there, and then checking out Terence's loft at the old Million Dollar Hotel, I decided to jog home the 8 miles to pico/ la cienega. He said i should blog about my jogging adventures!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Dirty Suits tour diary.

Our last few days have been interesting: we played the Unknown Theater Friday night then headed straight for Santa Cruz- when we got there at 9 am we went to KZSC and got interviewed by DJ Moonshine which was a lot of fun. We played a few songs, hung out a bit in SC then headed to SF to play Cafe Trieste on Market Street. Sunday night we opened up for Jeremy Black's cover band Philharmonica at Mojito's, where the bartender served us up some great, um, Mojitos! Yesterday (monday) we headed down to Coyote hearing studio to polish up two tracks, Bullfighter and Humble. Which we began recording last year. Today we're headed back to Santa Cruz to play the Boardwalk bowl, then back to los angeles.

Friday, February 19, 2010

the start over scrolls

1. always remember, You can always restart the game any time.
2.Next time you fail, count to ten and tell yourself you’re starting over.
3.Work with everything in life exactly as it is.
4.First thing to realize about your life is to understand that if you want to change and develop a better future you must accept your present.
5.Your pain and regret that you feel has been holding you back can actually become that what propels you forward.
6.Whatever is getting in the way of you living completely in bliss is in the past.
7.Getting the past out of the way and being related with life as it currently is what matters.
8. Instead of pretending you have all the answers, you should get into a space of speculation- not resolution.
9. Resolve to not need to know the final answer in this space of time. That takes the psychic pressure off of you and causes a more peaceful solution to spring forth from within you.
10. You must realize that there is no kwik fix- just try to do better slowly but surely, as if chipping away at an invisible stone.
Forming new Brain Patterns- The Brain matrix-
11. Stand in nothingness as if you are starting all over again. If you can create anything at all for your life, what would it be?
12.Is it now time to bridge the gap between fantasy and reality?
13. Is falling in love with the harmful aspects of your personality, your comfort zone, keeping you from being who you could fully be?
14.The essence of attraction is related to being committed to ideals, yet unattached to the outcome.
15.“I am” is referring to something you think you are. This is not necessarily accurate.
16.There is no past, if you really think about it. There is no “self” either.
17.You have to have a superior cause that is worth giving your past to.
18.Don’t sell out to being practical. Be unreasonable.
19. Does the present existence, the drama you are playing out enliven you? If not, take this current moment to change your position. Restart the chess game, reprogramming your brain. You can do this right now.
20. Power comes through the simplest way.
21.Simplicity is your essence. It’s who you’ve always been the core.
22.If it wasn’t for all the trauma you have endured throughout your life, you would be living simply. But because of pain and the need to avoid suffering your life has become complicated.
23. Realizing it’s not all your fault is empowering. SO is realizing that you can change from this point on.
24.Through trying to heal ourselves we’ve often made our wounds worse. The best way to confront this reality is to humbly realize that many times you could have chosen a better route, but that you have tried your best.
25.You are only human, so stop beating up yourself.
26.How can you live the rest of your life in endless exuberance?
27.If there was a way to live in a higher vibration, would you be willing to make the necessary changes even if it’s inconvenient?
28. Whatever is getting in the way of getting what you want, be willing to give that up, in such a way as if you were slowly peeling an onion.
29.Getting into your new rhythm slowly is key to lasting change.
30.Keep your eyes and ears opened for serendipitous opportunities, being fully present to the coincidences and synergy of life.
31.Create power using full yet simple language in your every day reality.
32.Simplicity is the gateway to the road of elegance.
33. Reorganize your present view of reality, Preparing for miracles.
34.Instead of telling people about your ideas, think of yourself as sharing them.
35.Make everybody who you love and respect part of your dream. If somebody does not fit into your cinema of well being, edit them out as much as possible.
36.There are no loopholes into the new you. Don’t look for shortcuts- the long difficult route is more scenic and interesting anyways.
37.Become a reality junky. Reality is more endlessly fascinating then any altered state could ever be.
38. Don’t be afraid of feeling tired. Fatigue is the reward for effort.
39. What do you have in your life that is worth being fully present to? Find something every morning that is worth throwing the covers off of your bed and jumping into the shower.
40.Before you go to bed each night, make a note of what you will be excited to face tomorrow.
41.You are not the fixed identity you think you are: Your ego, your concerns, your past nightmares.
42.Failure is not fatality.
43.If I fail one battle or even multiple battles , it doesn’t mean I’m a failure of the war in the fight for my integrity and dreams.
44. There is too much fear of failure in the world. You are living out the real punishment of fictional story, only because it has been told to you over and over again.
45.Positive thinking doesn’t solve negative thinking. You must go beyond them both by by being moved and inspired.
46. give up hopelessness and hope, both at the same time.
47.Occurring impossible does not = impossible.
48.Don’t think you’ll ever get to the top of the mountain where everything is perfected.
49. There is no ‘it’s difficult’ in reality- these negative aspects only actually occur in the words ‘it’s difficult’.
50.You were born perfect, until you said ‘something’s wrong here.’
51. You must do the work that is laid in front of you, dealing with what is not whole and complete- that which persistently keeps you from being the maximum you.
52.You know that you have dealt with something effectively if It no longer disturbs you.
53 It is time to knock over every fear like your bowling down balls. Until nothing negatively affects you any more.
54.What if it feels impossible to capably deal with this stuff? There is a solution for every problem, simply because of the fact that it happened in distance time and space. You didn’t start out with these problems, and you can lose them.
55.There is a difference between uneducated and stupid. Become a master of distinction.
56. Share where you have not been honest in your life with people whom you trust, having them hold you accountable.
57. Create a new possibility, then be it.
58. Once you have mastered creating a new possibility, Create many new possibilities, learning to give yourself and the universe instructions.
59.Learn to love the bullshit and the unworkability of everyday life.
60.Learn to embrace the chaos. You can be with people-
even those you have been afraid of.
61.the story of fear is what stops you- not the fear itself.
62.We are all going to fail the ultimate game in life, by dying- Which means there is absolute freedom to fail in any other game. Knowing this, what can you now accomplish that you were previously not letting yourself accomplish?
63.Our comfort zone is what inhibits freedom, along with our ego need to be seen as correct. When you let go of these uncertainties, doesn’t it feel empowering to know that it doesn’t necessarily matter whether or not you are seen as being “correct?”
64. many of our strengths come from supposed lack of freedom.
65. In your youth, something disappointing occurred as failure in our own mind. This created your ego defenses, which kept you from being fully present with other human beings. With the possibility of the past dissolving, can you now imagine yourself getting along better with your fellow human beings?
66.High concern for failure logically makes no sense.
67. You don’t need the white picket fence, or all the other things that everybody tries to convince you that you need. They don’t need them either.
68.Experience, in your mind’s eye, being someone who has everything.
69 I don’t have to try to be the best if I get rid of everything but the best.
70. Brainwash yourself into only accepting the best from now on.
71.Using the knowledge of physics which we are all subject to, to improve your life. For something to exist, there is a condition that needs to be present. For instance, there can be no life on earth without water. We don’t relate to ourselves as clear. We think of ourselves as separate, with a fixed way of existence. In nature you can’t have a vacuum- you must fill your void with the best stuff on earth. Not the shit that you’ve been piling up because of your past traumatic experiences. These only give you the same results over and over.
72.One phenomenon about your past condition is that you continue to perpetrate this reality by the words and language that you currently use.
Who you are is nothingness, so reinvent yourself.
73. If you weren’t your delusions, what could you possibly accomplish?
What has allowed that condition to be available?
74. Get out of your own way.
75. what if the way you have been living, The old self, the self from the past, is actually unreal?
76.mental illnesses arise from the words and language you assign to your problems. Stop acknowledging them and from lack of care they will dissolve. Try to do this little by little, not all at once.
77. Nobody can do your work for you, and don’t expect your transformation to be easy. But do expect it to happen.
78. The invention of yourself is a game. But it’s a game you can reprogram.
79. Be in touch with the source of your own power to such a degree that you become in control of a total transformation.
80.Get rid of brick walls that you have created in your mind. Once an environment get’s recreated, what is possible is very simple if you slowly and simply Reinvent yourself. It has been done before, keep in mind that if others have done it you can do it too.
81.although you have the ability to reinvent yourself, don’t get stuck with that invention. Only use it for as long as it serves your cause.
82.To get stuck on your new invention that works for now forever=insanity.
83.From where am I inventing myself? Out of nothingness- whatever I invent is a possibility.
84. Start thinking of your new possibility as something that has already started to occur.
85.We thought the future was predictable because our past has been in our future. But because we are now done with the past, we are enlivened by possibilities that we are now beginning to create.
86.What direction has your life been moving in? wouldn’t you rather cause the orbit of your experience to move in a more positive direction?
87. There has been too much past in your future. Get it out now.
88.The not you yet= ‘I gotta figure this out- what is my realm of future possibilitys?’ stop and think about how great life could be if you’d stop selling yourself short.
89. What are you reinventing yourself as? What realm of possibility could you be giving yourself that you haven’t or aren’t?
90. who you are becoming is a possibility for Everyone.
91.People get joy from you being your highest self. Don’t deprive them of this.
92. Have your friends hold you accountable. Share and contribute your ideas and thank your peers for their criticisms.
93.In your life, you got circumstances. These come from beyond choice. They aren’t your fault, but you can choose how you now respond.
94.Reinvent your new choices every day. Write down what you are slowly willing to say goodbye to.
95.Changing the wheel over, molding the clay. Transforming your transformation each and every day
96. Possibility doesn’t actually physically exist in reality. You cannot point to possibility- but it can be created.
97.If, for instance at this point, I have not had an active social life but desire one What am I giving up? The need to be Solitary.
98. How do I make what I’m creating real? It’s that I can reinvent myself that matters.
Example: I invent someone with perfect hygiene and health.
99.Deliver that which makes a difference. Give up the way people “occur” for you. What are you concerned with?
100. Empower and enable people to be transformed by your transformation.
101.Transformation machine- this is what you are from this point on.
102. Create a new view of yourself today.
Embracing your faith and coming clean. You inspire us all: giving us permission to do the same.
103.closed minds are unwise and not fun. That’s why you’ve decided to open yours. Let it remain like that.
104.Create a future as if you’re creating a new game. Be like the fictional characters you always admired: tom sawyer, the artful dodger, etc .
105.Integrity is good karma because when you are full of it, you must take action.
106.When you are not true to yourself, you become lazy and full of slow energies. This is reason in itself to not cheat yourself and others of your true nature.
107. It is extremely important that your actions are true to who you are. Integrity is the key to success.
108.Your identity should not be tied to your skills, but to your honesty, integrity, keeping your word, and constantly keeping up with your new transformation.
109.As you begin to take action in your life, there will always be obstacles in your way. Think of these obstacles as a sign that your are going on the right track.
110.You must figure out your unique command. It is a defense mechanism that we all have. Here are some:
Don’t screw with me.
I am easily offended.
I don’t need your help.
I don’t need anybody.
111. Speculate what kind of projects you could take on if you would be willing to give up your unique command. For instance, you may have the command ‘I don’t need your help’ and somebody tries to help you launch a business but you sabotage it because of a subconscious need to prove your command right. Are you trying so hard to appear correct that you do this kind of stuff?
112. What are the dreams you’ve given up on over the years that you could go back to after discarding your unique command?
113.The capacity to share and contribute is what gives us the most Power.
114. Being newly transformed, help people See things in themselves others cannot see.
115.There are no problems in reality. For instance, your career is not taking off. Or your not making enough money. In reality, these actually aren’t problems. They only occur in your mind, and so, in reality, they aren’t actually even there.
116.You must learn to have tunnel vision for your desire.
117: Rethink your problems from this formula: I want x but y.
118. Rethink and recreate a new realm of possibility. The only way to do this is to Be present and get complete with your past.
119.Start to get interested in that which lights you up. What is it? Take action on your commitments.
120. Explode with Expression, drip with drive, oozing power.
121.Path to adventure: that which leaves you enlivened, fulfilled, turned on.
122.keep inspired to the nature of commitments by– honoring your word, be brave, keeping true to your principles, being inspiring, and standing up for what is right.
123.Think of your self as a character. Your character’s limitations exist in the mind, so they don’t actually exist.
124. Create the space of a new realm of possibility for commitment.
125. hidden and undeclared commitments are not bad, however you should notice them, Having the courage to be authentic about your having been inauthentic.
126. Unencumbered is not necessarily free.
127.When I am people pleasing, I’m not doing what I want.
128.Living from a weak center instead of a strong core- not feeling free causes the feeling of being owed constantly. You always feel like your indebted.
129.Alive and filled with freedom- who can you be right now? Speculate on the possibilities
130. a person who is a master in the art of living makes little distinction between work and play.
131. Deal with what is actually happening, not what you imagine is happening .
132. Mastery- dealing with exactly what the I you think is.
133. Get out of your own way! Sometimes the less ‘you’ or ego,the better.
134. Your love for your own wellbeing is preventing you from seeing what’s right in front of your eyes.
135.you’re trying not to suffer- you want to look good so you put on a constant disguise.
“he who tries to save his life will lose it” Christ

136. Out of desperation you deadened your communication, and it got worse every day, until now.
137. Remember: you cannot be great and small at the same time.
138.Source of action= source of results. Results come from action.
139. when you’re lit up you’re lit up, even if there is failure present.
140. What is the source of action? Understanding + knowledge.
141. What is the result of action? Performance comes from action. Actions are a correlate.
142.We don’t live like life is presently occurring.
143.Human beings mess up commitments, turning being committed into being perfect. Nature of expectations- unfulfilled.
144. What can you do right now to improve your situation?
Think
Plan
Imagine
Act
145.Anything you want for yourself is available. Invent it as a possibility.
146. If you don’t visualize your possibilities, you won’t take action.
147.Integrity is like hygiene. It needs to be constantly attended.
148. In the same way that you brush your teeth every day, it is important to keep your integrity and your dreams constantly intact.
149. Sincerity is not integrity. It’s a refuge for weakness. It is an attempt to be seen as authentic, but you’re hiding it.
150.Integrity is a state or condition of being whole and complete, prefect, sound, unimpaired. Lacking no part.
151.your word is directly linked to your integrity. That is why if you continually break your word, your self esteem suffers. 152.Without integrity, nothing works. Workability decreases when you don’t keep your word. Integrity is as scientific for the soul as gravity. You can’t do integrity.
153.When what you feel matches reality, that is a coincidence. You’ve been more concerned with what isn’t happening then what is.
154. In the course of normal life, don’t expect people to point out your faults.
155. Learn to be with the world exactly as it is.
156.Trying to avoid failure= failure.
157.Start fighting and striving to live your life for real, on your terms. Not what you think you’re supposed to do.
158.Develop a sense of urgency. Why are you not being urgent in solving problems? Do you feel you have all of the time in the world? Begin it now to cancel out future regret.
159. If you were completely unrestrained what would you get committed to right now?
160.What are the dreams you once dreamed that you’ve forgotten about? Write them down.
161. Stand in ‘no ego.’ Life is effortless there, yet, ironically, full of power.
162. Start being bigger. Commit to mastering living from that place.
163. Imagine you have access to all you’ve ever wanted.
164.Get rid of the ‘you’ that you’ve been identified with. Then get even more bigger in spirit.
165. Have a new relationship with the ‘I’ that you actually are. 166. Are you addicted to the false you? You need to hold yourself accountable to living how you want to live.
167. live a life you love. Expect nothing less.
168.Embrace the massive unworkability in your life, with the knowledge that you have what it takes to break through what seems unbreakable.
169.Are you killing vibrancy and aliveness to be right about your view?
170.You change all the time. So you might As well strive to change for the better.
171. Toasters don’t choose to burn the toast. All of your responses have been automatic, and nobody is going to care enough about your problems to hold you accountable. You are the only one who can change your problems. You must alchemize your difficulties into gold.
172.Begin to think about what your life could really be about if you were finally playing by your rules. Now proceed to play by your rules.
173.you can’t win the game by what you’ve been doing, if it hasn’t worked for you so far. You must change your strategy. 174.Self expression reuires other people. The better terms you are with yourself, the better terms you’ll be with others.
175. If you’re using force, that is negating your own power- True power does not come from force.
176.Be in the middle of risk.
177.have you really had a taste of leadership in your life?
178.The biggest threat to your identity, ironically, is the winning of the game. Because you have been so used to losing it. Your identity that you’ve been protecting is designed to see your failure.
179.Sources of action.
What is the source of action? Not decisions. Not commitment. Not necessity. Not thinking.
Understanding and knowledge lead to actions. Performance comes as a result of action.
180.you haven’t been living your life as if it is occurring right now, in the present time. Begin to now.
181.Your love for your wellbeing is preventing you from seeing what is right in front of your eyes.
182. You’re trying not to suffer, you want to look good. So you put on a constant disguise out of desperation. Are you desperately hiding your desperation?
183.You now have the ability to dissolve your problems, simply by receiving permission from a source outside of yourself, which validates what you already know. You are now granted permission to break with the past and begin anew. You can do this as often as you need to, feeling no pressure whatsoever about making mistakes. This lack of resistance will cause you to make mistakes less and less.
One eighty degrees of seperation from your past.