changing

Watching and waiting for your bones
to desecrate his name.
Life is like a coin-
you can spend it anyway you like,
but you can only
spend it once.

PERILS OF A BOOKSTORE EDUCATION

blessed be
the bookstores that offer the public
comfy cushioned couches to sit on and read
to our heart's content.
There have been times when i stayed in warehouses
of pleasure such as these from the moment of opening
until closing time
In Bukowski's day the literary guys were at the bar
with their faces falling into their drink
now they're down at borders kneeling in uncomfortable
positions for hours on end.
With a book on their thighs you think i have money
enough to actually spend on buying all of these books?
And there's
no cheaper date then a free book signing, assuming you just go for the lecure.

China Migraine written 2/12/02

Chagrined chesire cat
with fire placed hot heart
i tap the walls to pulse
my thought and stray from the world
of the rational
i sink into the depths to bungy
above them desperately flinging myself
into the outer space, out of time
and space continuum
i still watch & wait
desire and try not to hate
These stale ceilings dare not to
bring me down-
nevertheless..........

han ji dance

han ji dance

What were the words to the song
that you never wrote
but wore them on your heart
as if covered by the white blanket
of grace

how did you know what to show me?
If you hadn't been there
i would have submitted to the gods
on bended knee,
but how to rise again without your guidance?

You showed me a road emblazed in silver
sprinkled in gold star
alight like turquoise locusts
showing us the way toward heaven.

And once again you're too humble
to realize:
i needed you more then you need me.

digitizing my old journals in case i lose them........

maybe the

meteor

maybe the meteor
will wipe us all out
the flood or the fire
there ain't no doubt
maybe the
stars will drop we'll be wondering why
there was no warning
they just fell from the sky
we'd live forever if i had my way
at least we had today

perchance
the planets will just peter out
from all of spinning and weaving around
then we will all look up
at the same time to see
a tidal wave
and a hankering to flea
this is what i'll be thinking as i'm running away, at least we had today

isn't it strange we gotta sa y goodbye?
don't you think it's weird that noone wonders why?

Comatose lyrics

been living in a coma for a long long time

thought i heard you whisper

are you still alive?

Been sleeping with the angels

and the devils too

can't get them out of my head

unless i am with you

drive your spies

in the middle of the night

i'll meet you at the end of the light.

Because i want it and i want it now.

There's snakes in my head

a holy ghost too

i shed my skin just like i'm chaning my shoes

gladly pass this moment onto you if you want me to, if you want me to.

Visit Dolce cafe @ 1440 s. robertson.

Mario's cafe, Dolce, located @ 1440 S. Robertson is suffering from the recession. He is one of the friendliest business owners in L.A. and I do not want his shop closing down! It's not quite a block south of pico/roberton. I want to start a mellow jam night there, maybe bring in musicians- only problem is we can't be too loud or play too late because it's downstairs from residences. I was also thinking of hosting Artists or whatever. Mario is pretty opened to ideas.

Landis Smithers spoke at Sarah Gavigan's U.C.L.A. class.

Sarah Gavigan's class at U.C.L.A. is fantastic. I can't afford it though! I was turned down for the extension scholarship but I'm not giving up. Yesterday Landis Smithers, a commercial director came and spoke to the class. One thing that stuck out in my mind that he talked about was how when he was looking for work out of college when there was a really bad recession. After not hearing back, he decided to send out his resume in large red envelopes with silver calligraphy written on it. He was soon offered many interviews. I guess the key is to key to think outside the box.
He also discussed the importance of visuals for demos, because when has a stack of hundreds of CD that's the first thing that grabs his attention. Anyways, loved the class but probably won't be able to take it...............